Tuesday, August 10, 2010

How does someone fall out of love?

I can only imagine what you'll think of me, but at this point, I don't even care. My problem is, I am in love with my best friend. We have been friends for a good many years, but became really close over the last two years. We were both seperated from our spouses, and leaned on each other when times were hard. I have always had trouble opening up my inner self to anyone, but with him, I bared my soul. We can finish each others sentences. He helps me with shopping for clothes, and is honest about how something looks, can you believe that? LOLOL He's been a great influence on my son and has helped him with homework and doing things with him that my ex doesn't do. We often feel each others happiness, sadness, even when we are ill, without seeing each other or having spoken in a couple of days. I never knew I could be that close to anyone. He loves me, but in way that best friends love each other. I, on the other hand, love him from every inch of my being. We have never had sex, never even kissed. He reconciled with his wife a few months ago, and for him I am happy, because he wanted his life back, and now things seem to be getting on that track for him. It's what I prayed for and what I wished for him. We still talk, understandably, not as much as we use to. We still laugh and play jokes, have an occasional lunch and still talk about things like we always have. I never want to lose the friendship I have with him. I have tried putting some distance in our friendship, and he noticed it. He told me that no matter what life deals us, he always wants the closeness we have. We have made life changing decisions together, and everything is always talked through. The problem is, it's ripping my soul out to see him happy and in love with someone else. I have cried for days trying to find a way of actually letting him go. I have waited all of my life to feel the way I do when I spend time with him. When I told him once, that needed space, he cried cuz he thought I was abandoning him. I can't think with a clear head, but I know that how I feel is so strong that it feels impossible to sever those ties with him. But I know for all involved it's what is best. No one knows how I truly feel. He was the one person that I shared my secrets with. How do I let go? How do I not hurt both of us for what is truly best in the long run. How does a person fall out of love?How does someone fall out of love?
You said you won't care what we'll think of you as you can imagine it. How come you still ask us? You're illogical and we shouldn't care a bit.How does someone fall out of love?
How do I let go? its not going to be easy, you are going to have to find your own love of your life to take the place of your best friend so you can let him go,


since there is and understanding between you both I see no reason to bring more hurt then there already is, jus stop now where you are at in this friendship of a relationship and don't let it get out of hand,


it takes time to fall out of love for someone, like I said you need to find someone ( yes I know it hard to find someone to trust now a days ) to take his place, but you sound like you can do this a I hope and pray that you do ..... peace
I don't think u can

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