I’ve got a lot of problems, I’ve been getting a terrible loneliness under my skin since I was 10, I’ve never been loved by anyone (starting with my parents) and I’ve never loved someone, I’ve never had a real friend, nor a boyfriend or a girlfriend (I mean, someone to fall in love with, not just someone to have sex with.. also because idk why but people here are all asexual @.@ I can have sex with someone only when I go in another country, don’t ask me the reason of this, it’s one of the things that are driving me crazy @.@).. I suffered sexual harassment when I was 10 and since then I suffered sexual trauma for about 5 years. I’ve been left alone by my parents, I suffered that hell all by myself, thinking people didn’t like me because I was wrong, I was guilty, I was disgusting. This lasted 5 years, and when I was 15 things slowly started to change, I got out of my trauma, started to have some kind of friends and finally surpassed my sex phobia. I felt like I was the queen of the universe for about two months, it was pure happiness.. but after that short period I realized things were not really changed. I was deeply changed, but people were still avoiding me, my “friends” were insincere and fake, no one feeling something for me. I thought I was too fat, and so too ugly (and actually it was true) to be loved by someone, so I went on diet and I lost almost 44 pounds in 2 years time, I tried to adopt different attitudes with people, trying to understand which was the right one, which one people would like. But no one has ever liked me (and I’ve never liked someone too, people here are all uninteresting, insignificant, close-minded and I’ve never had a feeling for someone), and this is still happening. It’s like I’m invisible, people don’t see me, I can’t start talking to someone, it’s like I really don’t exist. People here are all very antisocial, they have their provincial mentality and no interests, they’re not interested in travelling, knowing people, have experiences and so on, and this is actually a reason why it’s hard to find friends for me, and to fall in love. But this is not the only reason, and I’m afraid I’ve got something wrong inside me, I’m afraid things won’t change even when I’ll be in London or wherever else in the world.. I’ve never fallen in love (just a one-week crush last summer *.*)and I’m afraid of this, I’m afraid this will never happen, I’m afraid of I don’t clearly know what. How can I understand why am I wrong, what’s the wrong with me, why I can’t be someone’s Love Of My Life? Falling in love seems to be the easiest thing in world, it’s in every song, in every poem, in everyone’s eyes, but it doesn’t exist for me.. is really so difficult to fall in love? ):
Sorry for my pitiful English, and thank you for your answers (:Is really so difficult to fall in love?
Falling in love is one of those things that you can neither stop, nor control. It just happens, and when it does happen you will know it. I'm sorry that you suffered sexual harassment as such a young age, and had to go through that all. But when you fall in love, you will know it and you wont know when it will happen but it will. It's even harder to fall out of love once your in it. Just be your own person and learn to be comfortable in your own skin. If something doesn't suit you then change it, and if you want something done you must do it. Become the person you want to be, and try to build up a very very steady confidence. It will help you with a lot of things. And only after you've accepted everything about yourself and contoured yourself to what you want to be, then you can truly live your life and fall in love.Is really so difficult to fall in love?
You have to like yourself before you can expect anyone else to like you. Find things about yourself you love and focus on them. Your attitude and confidence will change. It will be easy to find love and friends.
okay you dont know when you fall in love, it just happens...
Um, there are more fish in the sea.....just grab a rod?
OH MY GOD!
you're italian, 18 years old and you speak English like that!??
you deserve a meddle that's excellent!
it just happens later for some people but... 18 is still young dating wise you have decades ahead of you don't worry about it!
you can stay with me in London when you're ready ;)
falling in love...is not easy and its not hard...all that has to happen is you meet someone one day or night, and you can tell that your attracted to eachother....but the huge part is thers more, you get to know eachother,,,,the good and the bad, help eachother smile more, laugh more, cry less...frienship blooms, and one day you realize, i cant imagine ever being without this person in your life---
alot of people think they are in love but there not...love is pure and its a gift. if you want to find love it Will happen, but you must have patience.
life is full of ups and downs. some people have had very sheltered lucky lives
others have gone through hell
we are all human
and we are survivors-we learn to cope and become stronger because we are the future!
everyone wants to be loved
but not everyone is patient
patience is a virtue
peace and love
godbless%26lt;3
Falling in love is not difficult. What IS difficult is finding the right one to be in love with. It's hard to explain, but when you are in love, you just know! It's just an unexplainable feeling. I believe there is someone out there for everyone. You just need to be patient!
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