What happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way? HELP!!! PLEASE!?
What happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way?
Okay this will be kinda long but I really need your advice cause i am desperate. Lately i have posted a lot of questions pertaining to this topic but have yet to find something that really helps so I'm going to reword it. I am in LOVE with this girl. Were good friends for about 2 years. Not like hanging out a lot but talking and texting a lot. We did hang out many times though. I shared a lot of stuff with her that i normally wouldn't tell anyone because i can be kinda insecure sometimes. She isn't my first love or anything but the only one i cannot get over. I have been through a rough break up before, but got over it eventually, in a month or so. But this time it is different because i never dated her. One day I decided to tell her that I liked her and she just sorta went around it and said that there were other guys and stuff but she's not dating anyone and hasn't been for a long time. This happened about 4 months ago and i was all right with it at first. But as time passes i get more and more depressed. I have acquired a taste for prescription drugs even, hydrocodone to be exact, also know as lortab. The pain killers give me a feel to which i no longer care that she doesn't love and i just admire her beauty and think about what a great person she is. The pills scare me tho because i have overdosed many times. They have caused me much physical sickness. I tried to take 20 in 24 hours before which should kill you and i puked for 2 days. Why does she make me do this to myself, well i know it only me but my feelings make me. I have spent a lot of time with her and know a lot about her and there isn't one thing that i don't love about her. She is nearly perfect with a few flaws that i like anyways. I even tear up sometimes when I'm high and thinking about her. Which is usually for me because i am usually a loud-ish and care free kinda person. I am extremely intelligent and so is she, 1300 on sat each and good schools. But she has really changed me. I love her so much and cannot stand not be with her. Since i told her that i liked her we stayed the same for a while but once i found the drugs i distanced myself greatly from her. I even ignore texts anymore and limit physical interact to a simple hi and small talk. I don't want her to find out about the stupidest choice of my life, drugs. But the pain is just to bad. When i feel really down i write about her. I filled up my blackberry and had to delete it all so i could receive texts. I also write on my mac and have over 15 pages. It makes me feel so gay to be so crushed by a single girl. i just wish she could know how i feel without telling her and making a bigger fool out of myself. I don't know what to do know. I am slowly getting of the drugs, I'll be completely off them within a month I'm determined. I want to tell her how i feel but don't know how. What do I do next? Thanks in advance for any help, i really appreciate it.What happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way? HELP!!! PLEASE!?
wow, there are a few more issues going on here other than loving her. The drugs were the worst mistake you could have made! You combine that with your sort of sorrow and depression and you will end up with a fatal error.
NO ONE is hopelessly in love with someone forever. It sounds redundant but its the only true advice. In time this shall pass. But you need to do more to help yourself. STOP obsessing, like writing about her. That just re-enforces your infatuation.
It feels impossible, but you need to pick yourself up and get involved with other things. Sports, a group of friends, school, your job, family, exercise, setting some goals and accomplishing them.....anything to help keep you pre-occupied and interesting in something else. Yes this will be extremely difficult, but eventually it will get easier and you will start to become more interested with other hobbies and much happier.
You seriously need to clean your system of this person. Its hard for you to separate the friendship and infatuation so its best to cut it all off. Otherwise you are only making it more difficult for yourself.
Second of all, TELL SOMEONE about the pills! Another friend or even family member. Yes, the person you tell may be very upset, or hurt, but the help that you need is worth the risk. Your family WILL help you! It is much much easier to conquer something with the help of others, even if its in the form of tough love.
I have been heartbroken before, and I am sure I will be again. its a part of life but the difference is how you choose to deal with it.
';the truth is everyone is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for'; - Bob MarleyWhat happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way? HELP!!! PLEASE!?
Well I would get myself more in-shape and more attractive.
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