What happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way?
Okay this will be kinda long but I really need your advice cause i am desperate. Lately i have posted a lot of questions pertaining to this topic but have yet to find something that really helps so I'm going to reword it. I am in LOVE with this girl. Were good friends for about 2 years. Not like hanging out a lot but talking and texting a lot. We did hang out many times though. I shared a lot of stuff with her that i normally wouldn't tell anyone because i can be kinda insecure sometimes. She isn't my first love or anything but the only one i cannot get over. I have been through a rough break up before, but got over it eventually, in a month or so. But this time it is different because i never dated her. One day I decided to tell her that I liked her and she just sorta went around it and said that there were other guys and stuff but she's not dating anyone and hasn't been for a long time. This happened about 4 months ago and i was all right with it at first. But as time passes i get more and more depressed. I have acquired a taste for prescription drugs even, hydrocodone to be exact, also know as lortab. The pain killers give me a feel to which i no longer care that she doesn't love and i just admire her beauty and think about what a great person she is. The pills scare me tho because i have overdosed many times. They have caused me much physical sickness. I tried to take 20 in 24 hours before which should kill you and i puked for 2 days. Why does she make me do this to myself, well i know it only me but my feelings make me. I have spent a lot of time with her and know a lot about her and there isn't one thing that i don't love about her. She is nearly perfect with a few flaws that i like anyways. I even tear up sometimes when I'm high and thinking about her. Which is usually for me because i am usually a loud-ish and care free kinda person. I am extremely intelligent and so is she, 1300 on sat each and good schools. But she has really changed me. I love her so much and cannot stand not be with her. Since i told her that i liked her we stayed the same for a while but once i found the drugs i distanced myself greatly from her. I even ignore texts anymore and limit physical interact to a simple hi and small talk. I don't want her to find out about the stupidest choice of my life, drugs. But the pain is just to bad. When i feel really down i write about her. I filled up my blackberry and had to delete it all so i could receive texts. I also write on my mac and have over 15 pages. It makes me feel so gay to be so crushed by a single girl. i just wish she could know how i feel without telling her and making a bigger fool out of myself. I don't know what to do know. I am slowly getting of the drugs, I'll be completely off them within a month I'm determined. I want to tell her how i feel but don't know how. What do I do next? Thanks in advance for any help, i really appreciate it.What happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way? HELP!!! PLEASE!?
When I first read your question, I was a bit scarred to answer it. Listen, this girl is extremely lucky to have someone love her like you do. You should express your feelings towards her in every way you can, so talk to her even if it means being rejected. Drugs are not the solution to your problems, they will only make you more miserable. Get that girl alone, face to face, and talk to her seriously. You have got to know if there is hope for you two. If not, then it will hurt, but you can slowly let go and move on with your life. It will be painful, but if you love her like you say you do then you will respect her wishes. I Hope you understand and good luck.What happens when you fall in love with someone but they don't feel the same way? HELP!!! PLEASE!?
see a shrink get antidepressants and stay under a dr care.. its easy to feel more for someone when you are feeling less of yourself. I think you should focus on developing yourself to a healthy place and then not think about a relationship til you can get there.. its just a fact of life.. not everyone is going to dig you when you are diggin them.!!
and it stinks.. move on!
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